Trader Joe Fight to the Death. Brain Fight.

Man, sometimes I feel a little bit like a joke, and I have to laugh. LAUGH at the way life turns out.

I wasn't feeling well at work yesterday morning, so I told my boss, "hey girl hey, can I work at home?" and she was all like, "sure you can." I should definitely be grateful for my job right? It is so very flexible and accommodates to my needs.

While driving home, I decided to impulsively stop at Trader Joe's. That's how all my craving-induced grocery shopping visits happen. I get that itch and then I have to fulfill my binge-devil thoughts that parade all over my brain.

So while at Trader Joe's, I purchased some pecan pie ice cream and pumpkin bread pudding. I am pretty sure these purchases were a result of some sort of subconscious decision making because I got an ad from Trader Joe's the previous day which promoted their pecan pie ice cream and pumpkin bread pudding. I guess advertising does work to some extent, huh?

I've been trying this whole mindful eating bullshit. And, well, I don't think it worked because I could not get my mind off the damn pecan pie ice cream or the pumpkin bread pudding the minute I got home. It was just dumb. I had a bite of the pecan pie ice cream and felt that it wasn't that great. But then I was hungry like a half hour later and decided to have another bite...Then I was all like, well I want some pumpkin bread pudding now, so I might as well make some...AND OMG IT WAS FUCKING DELICIOUS.

So basically I spazzed out and eventually threw both the pumpkin bread pudding and pecan pie ice cream away. There goes $10 bucks down the drain. Oh well, at least I saved some calories and some sanity -- right?

This is what I deal with every day. And it's funny. And it's sad. All at the same time.